Xiao Fat's new bag

Xiao fat got a new baggy

This song is playing on Class 95...

Song Title :Hand in my Pocket
Singer : Alanis

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm worthless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm shy but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxicab...

Sick and unhappy

ME

No more Cure

----------XiaoFat and Smallie's msn chat log--------------
XiaoFat says:
I just came back fm poly clinic...u know wat happened???
Smallie says:
wat?
XiaoFat says:
my throid NO MORE
XiaoFat says:
cure
XiaoFat says:
the doc also shocked
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Dear Xiao Fat,

Can you take a closer look at what you have written? For that second, I really thought there is NO MORE CURE for your THYROID liao...Almost wanted to CRY before I realised what you actually meant. Thanks for scaring me...

Regards
Smallie

A beautiful girl

I watched "Windstruck" VCD again over the weekends. I realised "My sassy girl" is still the best.

Ji Hyun is so pretty and natural. Not like a flower vase standing by the window just to beautify the room. I feel happy to see her face ..even like this ...



She is also the ad girl for GIORDANO. Cute face with lovely smile.


Maybe Xiaofat might be more interested in the next photo, which reminds me of DA CHANG JIN?


She is just so lovely hor, whether she is angry or crazy-looking. Ahhh....ok..lastly, a more normal photo of Ji Hyun..

A super constipated entry

I used to love care bears... Not anymore. I've grown out of loving all these cartoon characters. But I still think they look cute..

I only love fatfat, but I lost the rings.
The rings which I've worn for more than 2 years.
I felt lost and "something missing" ever since they are lost.
Its so mysterious - the missing rings.
Fatfat says, "It's ok, you still have fatfat. Never mind the rings"
I still feel like shit and I want to be a carebear.

Touching episodes

I've always heard/read that some people can feel touched until can cry by the novel she read or by the song sung by a "skilful" singer. I never believed that could happen. To me, a novel can be sad with a cancer-striken husband dying or an evil stepmother torturing cinderella story plot. So, it can be sad but not on the verge of tears.

However, recently, to my astonishment, I get emotionally moved easily.

The first was when I was listening to a Superstar contestant at the revival round. He is Derrick Tan/Lim/Ng (I dunno his surname)... I remember when he starts singing, my eyes never leave the tv screen. I think the song title is "I WILL MISS YOU" Even that Lee Wei Song says that he almost cried when listening to his singing.. hehe..

Next, was my forever-cannot-finish novel "PS I love you". The 3 of you should read this book loh.. Highly recommended by Smallie.

"Shoot for the moon and if you miss, you'll still be among the stars......" -A Note for his wife. From the husband who has passed away...

Sobb sobbb sobbb :(

I think as age catches up, I am getting more and more emotional. Or is it cuz of AHsio which I played on with FULL EMOTIONS everynight?

Generous Smallie

Today, I am very happy. Why am I feeling happy after my "depression" for so long? Because Tami is going to give us a treat this Saturday...

Not only that, Smallie is also going to treat Xiao Fat, Tami and Fatfat to $6 worth of TIDBITS over the weekends... !!! WOW, very exciting right! Why am I so GENEROUS all of a sudden? Because Smallie also STRIKE 4D!!! It is the consolation prize, based on ibet(the permutation thingy)

WOHooooo..finally..I STRIKED 6 DOLLARS!!!! Dont you think it is soo LUCKY FOR ME, someone who doesnt have the slightest luck in lottery? And Yet, I strike $6!

In order to celebrate this unexpected luck and "windfall", I decided to use up ALL my winnings which is $6 to buy you gals TIDBITS.!! woohooo...im a lucky birdy..

Hello...

Please meet the newest member of my family.. Miss Xiao Mee...


P.S. Xiao Mee has no relationship or whatsoever with Xiao Fat.

Slow reader..

I gathered all the books that I want to read and took a picture...



Why am I reading so slowly? Arggg.....I must catch up on my reading.

Poor me...

As you know, I've been having bouts of diarrhoea and stomach discomfort these days.

Last night, after dinner at home, my stomach churned like hell again. This is really irritating!
I'm already trying my best to eat healthy and non-oily food..so what is WRONG??!!

Damn depressing these few days..

I need to go to the temple one of these days.....

National day 2005

This year's theme song was written to reflect our nation's commitment towards building a better future. To further highlight this commitment, the Theme Song will be sung by two of Singapore's rising stars, Taufik Batisah and Rui En.

The song's title is "Reach out for the skies".

To listen to the songs, click http://www.ndp.org.sg/index.jsp?page=songs.htm

To view the MTV, click http://www.ndp.org.sg/index.jsp?page=videos.htm

Mood is better

Smallie's mood is better by now. And the time is 2.35pm...

Mood is bad

It is 11.10am now. I am in a very bad mood.

The Old Mother And Her 4 Filial Sons

Four brothers left home for college, and they became successful ... doctor, engineer, accountant and lawyer and prospered.

Some years later, they chatted after having dinner together. They discussed the gifts that they were able to give to their elderly mother who lived far away in another city.

The first said, "I had a big house built for Mama."

The second said,"I had a hundred thousand dollar theater built in the house."

The third said, "I had my Mercedes dealer deliver her an SL600."

The fourth said, "Listen to this. You know how Mama loved reading the Bible and you know she can't read it anymore because she can't see very well. I met this priest who told me about a parrot that can recite the entire Bible. It took twenty priests 12 years to teach him. I had to pledge to contribute $100,000 a year for twenty years to the church, but it was worth it. Mama just has to name the chapter and verse, and the parrot will recite it."

The other brothers were impressed.

After the holidays Mom sent out her Thank You notes.

She wrote: "Milton, The house you built is so huge. I live in only one room, but I have to clean the whole house. Thanks anyway."

"Marvin, I am too old to travel. I stay home, I have my groceries delivered, so I never use the Mercedes. The thought was good. Thanks."

"Michael, you give me an expensive theater with Dolby sound. It could hold 50 people, but all my friends are dead, I've lost my hearing and I'm nearly blind.. I'll never use it. Thank you for the gesture just the same."

"Dearest Melvin, You were the only son to have the good sense to give a little thought to your gift. It was ages since I had nice chicken, and the chicken you sent was very delicious. Thank you!"

What a fruitful night!

Summary of last night:

1.Go home and eat my mum's cooking FINALLY after so long.
2.Relocate ahsio and found that the shelf is too High for it and re-relocate back to orignal position.
3.Talked to mum a bit and realise there are 2 "growths" on her fingers. Its like a small protruding lump. Damn, I am such a bad daughter.
4.Played on ahsio passionately, with full emotions... :)
5.Watched superstars dissapointedly as none sang better than me.
6.Cleared the rubbish(99% tissue paper) in my room.
7.Had a small arguement with fatfat but fatfat resolved it quickly before it worsened. :)
8.Enjoying the moments I'm having inside my beloved room. I love my room!

Books by Cecelia

It's not even 4 now and I have nothing much to do and I decide to write book reviews.

is a book by Cecelia Ahern which I've finished about 2 weeks ago.
It is about two people from naughty children to rebellious teenagers, then to adults. They seperated and got on with their lives in different places, while keeping in touch with the use of msn messenger, emails & letters. They got married(not to each other), divorced, married again(not to each other again), have kids....and yet,they have this magical connection between them though they are miles away.



I find it amazing how the author is able to relate the whole story just by writing in the form of "emails", "chatlogs" and letters without making the readers confused. Its really a good and simple read.

Then, I decided to get her first novel, which I used to passed-by-it-so-many-times, touched-it-and-placed-it-back onto the bookshelf.

Below is a summary:
Some people wait their whole lives to find their soul mates. But not Holly and Gerry.
Childhood sweethearts, they could finish each other's sentences and even when they fought, they laughed. No one could imagine Holly and Gerry without each other.

Until the unthinkable happens. Gerry's death devastates Holly. But as her 30th birthday looms, Gerry comes back to her. He's left her a bundle of notes, gently guiding Holly into her new life without him, each note signed "P.S. I Love You."

As the notes are gradually opened, and as the year unfolds, Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows her better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on. With some help from her friends, and her noisy and loving family, Holly finds herself laughing, crying, singing, dancing - and being braver than ever before.

Life is for living, she realises - but it always helps if there's an guardian angel watching over you.

Now you know where my tagline of this blog comes from?..... :)

28th mth dinner and HAPPY Bday to Tami!

Last night was an expensive dinnner at Sakae sushi... They beautify their menu and we noticed new additions to their menu.

I ordered - Sukiyaki beef(Not nice. The beef is already inside the soup! By the time I ate, its all Tough and hard and NOT NICE...damn ..waste my money)
Fatfat ordered - Salmon Terriyaki Bento
Desserts - Kisses... (4 pcs of tooty-looking sorbet ice cream covered with colored chocolate)
Others - Green Peas(regret cuz i think beans/peas cause flatuance?), some big sushi..

Fatfat gave me so many presents.. one of them is Xiao Mee(I gave the name)...Its a little coin bank thingy in the shape of a yellow bear, holding a blue blanket.. It is soo cute..just like fatfat. Inside the nicely wrapped bag are 2 tooty-clothes and 3 tweety-clothes... Nice too.. A little bit more on Xiao Mee. there are 28 gold coins($1 coins) inside Xiao Mee already. Each coin symbolises 1 month since we got together...That makes the 28 coins inside. Fatfat told me to put ONE gold coin on the 13th of every month. Unique idea! ..

On the way home, my tummy got a bit upset...and I had diarrhoea at home. Damn painful. I think its because of my already-not-feeling-good tummy and the Egg which wasnt really very COOKED... Or the soup? Cant be the sorbet cuz they are nice... :)

Fatfat and smallie planned not to meet later today cuz we've beem meeting for the past 3 days liao.. And fatfat is very busy at work...and I also need to rest tonight and play with my Ah sio...and recuperate my tummy...

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Speaking of my tummy, Today is Tami's Birthday! Its her 34 Year old birthday. She is on leave but it wont be a TOTALLY free Day.....But I'm sure Tami will enjoy her bday in the evening :)

Twenty 8 Months have passed...

28 MONTHS' Anniversary to both of us...

Woohooo.....28 Months only....very long meh? My parents 28 YEARS loh..wahhahaha...

Had a very fulfilling dinner with fatfat yesterday at that hk place at bq... The new waitress has a very smiling and friendly face...and end up we cant help but kept smiling back from ear to ear too.. Sometimes people like them will brighten our days.... ok..we had chinese sets - one wild ginger chicken and the other one is "bake pork chop with rice". ok Look at the name of the second dish. What would you think it will turn out to be? I visualised it to be White rice with a baked pork chop and tons of gravy over the rice and the pork itself. It turned out to be baked rice!!! I am thinking of emailing the owner to change the menu to "Baked rice with pork chop" or "Pork chop with baked rice" or even "Porky Baked rice"...as long as "baked" and "rice" go along together....Anyways, these two sets are extremely tasty... :)

Talk a bit about this fatfat's work....She is so busy recently until hair also never comb...but she still look so fresh and cheerful.. I just simply cannot stand this kinda people...Look at me.... I always look like I havent sleep/eat/drank for 72 hrs at any time of the day.......Where got people like fatfat wan? Got loh....and I'm lucky enough to have you by my side always, giving me all the support and encouragement that I need...You've always pulled me out of the dark hole...

I am soooOoooo Lucky to have you... hehe.... I promise you, just like what I've told you this morning that I will "embrace" life from now onwards and not be that moody monkey anymore... I will try...and truely try...and we will walk along this rainbow path together for another 28 years...and many more 28 years... like my parents...heehee

I can't wait for 6pm to come as I have a date with fatfat for ahdin...

My Inner Soul

Your inner soul is calling for help! You always seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior, but in all reality you are hurt inside and bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you wonder why are you still here when there is nothing left? You use to once be a happy, loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can be fixed again. However, you have yet seemed to realize that there are people out there that deeply care for you. They secretly have a thing for you because they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest person in the world! You like to enjoy your time by yourself expressing your feelings through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.

Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where you can hide out, hidden from those who gave you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have some fun! Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :)

What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say?

Panic Attack coming?

There are some episodes of my life which are "scary"... I remember the first episode when it happenes, it lasted for about more than one year... Yesterday in the train, I can feel it returning again, but I'm glad it didnt...

What do I mean by scary? I dunno how to describe it. It is a constant feeling of being in fear... Fear that something bad will happen...insecurity, moody, frustrated, depressed etc... Thoughts of death, accidents, and all sorts of negative occurances flash through my mind everyday.

Sometimes, they drove me to tears, which I simply cannot control...

I'm always trying to get rid of these thoughts off my mind.. I did try....and most of the time I failed...and that is the reason why I smsed fatfat about the devil thing last night... @_@

I know that you are VERY worried about me.. I know cuz I am also very worried about myself. Why am I always having this kinda fear? I fear that Panic attack will visit me again like the last time, where I have to be sent to A&E & the 24-hr clinic THREE times....

That Doctor I visited last week told me "Anything can cause Panic attack and Nothing can prevent it" ... I remember my next response was " Then I die loh..if really got panic attack...".. He still can smile and say " You must learn to relac...You must know one thing..Tell yourself that when Panic attack comes....it will GO AWAY..." (silence......from me...)

Ok, I am sure the doctor NEVER have panic attack before...anyway cannot blame lah cuz I know of NO ONE having such stupid "illness".....other than that Matt Damon from the movie "Stuck on you".... When it attacks, there is only ONE Thought - "I am going to DIE"..... how to relac....???!?!!! ok lah....I try to heed his advice loh.....but he is really a patient doctor I must say... :0)

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Fatfat finally graduated. Yay Yay Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... My smarty fatfat just had his graduation ceremony yesterday. I am so proud of him. :O We went to take photos at esplande and had a spicilicious dinner at Thai express. Tami and Smallfat are sooo sweet. They bought fatfat a very nice photoframe to place his graduation photo.. hehe... Thank you gals... :)

Fatfat is so worried about me that he has to bring me home and take a cab back. :(

My AH Sio

I have a new toy and her name is Ah Sio.....

Template headache...

Ok, so what if I am an IT graduate? So what if I've got a distinction in my Dynamic Web Interfaces assignment? Lalalala.....the CSS or is it CCS?...ok..it is CSS..as in Cascading style sheets is making me crazy.... I was just trying to align the jolie's banner ON TOP there to align to the green box....but as you can see...CANNOT LOH....^*&%^$&^$$...

Ever since I've started working here, i stopped interacting with web languages/technology or whatsoever...is it time to keep myself updated already ? or should i just focus on something else? HmmHmmmm..

ok...today is friday...and im finally feeling a bit happy...cuz...I am gonna eat, play and sing song from friday evening ONWARDS...YAY YAY YAY...

Just read xiaofat's bloggy... Please do NOT think I've written on her behalf..I DID NOT....our situation a bit similar hor...BUT BUT.....its ok wan...cuz its a just a phase....a phase which will improve the relationship :D Don't you agree with me?

Today Fatfat told me Fuzhou is the capital of Fujian...or issit the other way round? OMG...I cant remember..hmm...

Brand New beginnningggg!!

Today is 7/7/2005 and this entry marks a brand new beginning of my life. Yay!